Mandaris Moore


I am telling the world my mission.
I am telling the world my mission.

I wrote the above in the OmniGroup slack. I think I’ll set a reminder so that I don’t lose track of who I am and where I’m going.


I've been rewatching Westworld with my wife. It's been fun seeing how there are hints of what's to come throughout the first season. I don't know how much the writers really had planned, but it's so much fun to think that something is going to happen and then seeing something completely different.

It's also exciting to see my wife come up with her own theories and see the wonder on her face. These are the good times.


I'm still looking for the peace in my puzzle.
I'm still looking for the peace in my puzzle.

A long time ago, I went to a seminar called EmpowerU. Don't bother looking them up because the name has been used by so many different organizations, it would just confuse you to what I'm trying to say...

Anyway, I went to a seminar and I really got inspired to make a change in my life and I've been struggling with trying to make sense of where I want to go next.

It feels like all I can think about it just trying to make it to the next week or day.

But that's not thriving, and that's not the example that I want to show my children.

How do I get out of this rut?


A picture made to all the mother's of the world.
A picture made to all the mother's of the world.

Well, it's almost that time to tell the women in my life how much that I love and appreciate them. I often think about how the person that petition for the day to be a holiday soon tried to stop it.

Life is funny that way.

We should all appreciate those we care about on a daily basis. That goes without saying but I also feel that it gives us all a chance to get out of our daily routine and do something a little more than a thank you grunt.


Spending sometime with good friends.
Spending sometime with good friends.

I got to spend some time with my friends and play Dungeons and Dragons today. It felt good to spend some time with people who really matter to me.

We've been playing together for years and it was amazing to just get be in the same room and make the magic happen.


I'm going to spend a couple minutes just writing here. I want to do something more with my time on the computer.

First and foremost, I have to have more of an understanding of where my time is actually going when I'm on the computer. For that, I'm going to use the wonderful timing.app to track where my time has been spent.

A graph showing that I spend quite a bit of time surfing the internet
A graph showing that I spend quite a bit of time surfing the internet

I was a little shocked to see that -even though I felt pretty productive this week- I1 spent so much time searching the internet or other unproductive time.


  1. To be completely honest, I'm not the only one who uses the house computer. 


Mindmap of what is on my mind.
Mindmap of what is on my mind.

I just spent 5 minutes on what are some of the things that are currently on my mind. Honestly, I think I spent more time on the clip art associated with the mindmap than actually thinking about what it means.

I've got a lot of things happening right now and I hoped that putting it in a pretty picture can help me sort it out. So...

What’s Up

Ultimately, I exported the mind map as an outline and decided to expand it here.

Work

The way that I currently make a living. I find that I'm grinding for someone else and not me or my family.

Doing the work

I don't feel that I have a huge problem doing what is asked of me. I do have a problem with the amount of things that need to be done and the amount of support that I'm getting from everyone else. I feel as though a lot of people don't understand that things need to be balanced.

Dealing with the People

I do not feel that the people that I'm working with are on the same page. Sometimes, I feel like I'm all by myself on a lot of fronts. I have friends at work, but I also have people who are more into their own ego than getting to the next level in life.

Definitely room for more teamwork.

Making ends meet

Money is absolutely horrible. They say it cannot make you happy, but I find that not having it certainly can make you unhappy.

Cutting expenses

No question. Have to cut back on soo many things. I've started taking my lunch and I've long since stopped buying comic books. The problem is that me and my family like to go out to eat quite a bit.

Making More

I've been playing around with the idea of getting a second job. It would have to be a night position, but I don't know if I'd be able to pull it off with the lack of sleep that would eventually happen.

Being fulfilled

This one is just about how I feel about myself. I feel as if I lost my direction in life and I'm really questioning if I had one at all.

What is my current passion?

I like messing around with MacOS X. I love the feel of typing and the pleasure of getting things like my website up and running.

But I want to make something else too.

Not just this blog post but something that can help others, like a tutorial or book.

Where do I see myself in the future?

Unfortunately, the future looks grim. I've got upcoming expenses and less time and resources to deal with them.

Having a family

The most important aspect. I have a responsibility not just to myself but to other people.

Being able to communicate

I want to make sure that my family is able to talk to me if they need to and that I work on my active listening.

Making sure that everyone is cared for

I love my family and it is important to me that they are happy.

In conclusion

What a small little rant. I feel much better getting that out of my system and will have to review this moving forward.


The first award that I've won in years.
The first award that I've won in years.

I did Toast Masters today and I even managed to get a little award for best "Table Topics". It is an event where you select a random topic and speak about it for 2 minutes.


I was thinking about doing some kind of challenge for the month of April. I wasn't really able to start yesterday, but today is a great to start with something new.

Here are somethings that I'm thinking about working on

  1. Writing. I want to work on my communication via writing. I think that I can be better served by focusing on making my writing better. Both with grammar and how I express ideas.
  2. Web Design. Just making it look nicer would make me feel better about giving the url to people
  3. Planning. Setting more time to work on things that need to be improved.


I'm slowing making progress on my blog. It doesn't look like much because I don't have any css associated with it. I'm ok with it looks a little rough for now because I want to focus on the design for now and I rally don't think I'm going to get a lot of people checking it out between now and whenever...

What I would like do is challenge myself to do more than just play around on my computer. I've been spend more and more time becoming aware of the little clock in the upper right hand corner of the screen that tells me how productive I've been on my Mac.

Image of Timing in Menubar showing that I am 62% productive.
Image of Timing in Menubar showing that I am 62% productive.

Personally, I feel that every little bit counts towards becoming an adult. I can't go back to the days where I only had to worry about homework any more. In fact,I no longer wish for those days because I understand that even then I had some kind of struggle going on. The me now, is a lot more self aware and more confident in who I am.