Mandaris Moore

Today, I thought about how I start most of my post with the word "today". If you look through all of my writings on this blog you probably won't find it because it's usually the first thing that I delete when I'm editing.

Maybe it's because some part of me is always thinking about how I want to start or continue something and that Today will be the day that everything will work out and I can start down easy street.

It hasn't happened but I feel that life is filled with stops and starts and as long as you focus on making some progress everyday - even if it's a little - that feeling of Today goes away.

People still make mistakes.

I haven’t seen a pen like this since high school. I thought it was funny that even thought we pushing and pushing for a paperless life style we still have room for something like this.

I am telling the world my mission.

I wrote the above in the OmniGroup slack. I think I’ll set a reminder so that I don’t lose track of who I am and where I’m going.

I've been rewatching Westworld with my wife. It's been fun seeing how there are hints of what's to come throughout the first season. I don't know how much the writers really had planned, but it's so much fun to think that something is going to happen and then seeing something completely different.

It's also exciting to see my wife come up with her own theories and see the wonder on her face. These are the good times.

I'm still looking for the peace in my puzzle.

A long time ago, I went to a seminar called EmpowerU. Don't bother looking them up because the name has been used by so many different organizations, it would just confuse you to what I'm trying to say...

Anyway, I went to a seminar and I really got inspired to make a change in my life and I've been struggling with trying to make sense of where I want to go next.

It feels like all I can think about it just trying to make it to the next week or day.

But that's not thriving, and that's not the example that I want to show my children.

How do I get out of this rut?

A picture made to all the mother's of the world.

Well, it's almost that time to tell the women in my life how much that I love and appreciate them. I often think about how the person that petition for the day to be a holiday soon tried to stop it.

Life is funny that way.

We should all appreciate those we care about on a daily basis. That goes without saying but I also feel that it gives us all a chance to get out of our daily routine and do something a little more than a thank you grunt.

Spending sometime with good friends.

I got to spend some time with my friends and play Dungeons and Dragons today. It felt good to spend some time with people who really matter to me.

We've been playing together for years and it was amazing to just get be in the same room and make the magic happen.

I'm going to spend a couple minutes just writing here. I want to do something more with my time on the computer.

First and foremost, I have to have more of an understanding of where my time is actually going when I'm on the computer. For that, I'm going to use the wonderful to track where my time has been spent.

A graph showing that I spend quite a bit of time surfing the internet

I was a little shocked to see that -even though I felt pretty productive this week- I1 spent so much time searching the internet or other unproductive time.

  1. To be completely honest, I'm not the only one who uses the house computer. 

Mindmap of what is on my mind.

I just spent 5 minutes on what are some of the things that are currently on my mind. Honestly, I think I spent more time on the clip art associated with the mindmap than actually thinking about what it means.

I've got a lot of things happening right now and I hoped that putting it in a pretty picture can help me sort it out. So...

What’s Up

Ultimately, I exported the mind map as an outline and decided to expand it here.


The way that I currently make a living. I find that I'm grinding for someone else and not me or my family.

Doing the work

I don't feel that I have a huge problem doing what is asked of me. I do have a problem with the amount of things that need to be done and the amount of support that I'm getting from everyone else. I feel as though a lot of people don't understand that things need to be balanced.

Dealing with the People

I do not feel that the people that I'm working with are on the same page. Sometimes, I feel like I'm all by myself on a lot of fronts. I have friends at work, but I also have people who are more into their own ego than getting to the next level in life.

Definitely room for more teamwork.

Making ends meet

Money is absolutely horrible. They say it cannot make you happy, but I find that not having it certainly can make you unhappy.

Cutting expenses

No question. Have to cut back on soo many things. I've started taking my lunch and I've long since stopped buying comic books. The problem is that me and my family like to go out to eat quite a bit.

Making More

I've been playing around with the idea of getting a second job. It would have to be a night position, but I don't know if I'd be able to pull it off with the lack of sleep that would eventually happen.

Being fulfilled

This one is just about how I feel about myself. I feel as if I lost my direction in life and I'm really questioning if I had one at all.

What is my current passion?

I like messing around with MacOS X. I love the feel of typing and the pleasure of getting things like my website up and running.

But I want to make something else too.

Not just this blog post but something that can help others, like a tutorial or book.

Where do I see myself in the future?

Unfortunately, the future looks grim. I've got upcoming expenses and less time and resources to deal with them.

Having a family

The most important aspect. I have a responsibility not just to myself but to other people.

Being able to communicate

I want to make sure that my family is able to talk to me if they need to and that I work on my active listening.

Making sure that everyone is cared for

I love my family and it is important to me that they are happy.

In conclusion

What a small little rant. I feel much better getting that out of my system and will have to review this moving forward.

The first award that I've won in years.

I did Toast Masters today and I even managed to get a little award for best "Table Topics". It is an event where you select a random topic and speak about it for 2 minutes.